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woohooo!

so grad school is doing its thing.
hard to figure out time management to get all these damn readings done
but i'll figure something out!

class today from 11-6
but should be fun!

i was never good for you. maybe it's the other way around, i was too good for you.
i got my closure, i can move on with that. im fine with that.
i hope you dont make the same mistake with her again, she will fuck you over for life.


grad school starts tomorrow. orientation tonight. i wrote to my field placement advisor, hopefully i can find something closer to philly then be all the way out in chester. ::fingers crossed::

lucero said it best: darling don't cry.

he's not worth my tears or my time. he doesnt know what he's missed out on because he wants shitty girls.

for the first time i can say i know i was good for him and would have added somethign to his life that he never would get from someone else.


that's all now.

all the best wishes,

yay for grad school

yayyy

i hope i can get enough money to get a new lap top!

today is the first day im trying to kick you as a habit
i got my closure.. finally after all those years

i just want you to be happy and i realize you dont think of me as anything special

but i am special, to someone i will be one day. i wont let you take advantage of me i really just cant do it to myself anymore...


i know what i want
i know you want the same things
but how can i make you see i'm so good for you?

i want to be someone's priority not their option...

you tell me im the best you've been with in bed...especially what yr favorite is haha

you tell me your not leaving, get yr ass back in bed with me

you snuggle me and kiss me how i love it

your snoring puts me out like a light

you kiss me off in the morning and say i hope you have a good day at work as you roll over

youve had my heart for the last 2 1/2 years.


how can i get yours?

why do you even care?
i know you will read this...
just tell me why

in a matter of a couple weeks
i've decided to push certain guys away from me
is it so bad to know what i want and not want to settle
i'm sorry but when kissing someone i need to feel that the person is passionate or at least a good kisser
temple law student texted me, i dont know how i feel about that.
he openly told me he was going on a date with another girl. my father was right, you cant get mad if someone tells you the truth. and that's that. i couldnt get mad.

zach did come over and idk he just isn't doing anything with him life. and its irritating me

MS got the boot too

i guess ever since joe came back into the picture things just seemed hopefully... do i really wanna deal with that bullshit again? me being crazy over him?
...yeah NO. I DONT

it took you 2 years almost to start talking to me again.
i'm glad we are talking again, silly isn't it that i still get those butterflies that i use to

stronger minded, smarter, not so naive, not letting you hurt me this time

bring it on neighbor
i'm ready to see you in person and see if those feelings are still there

it kills me knowing you pretty much wont ever talk to me again.

i've tried so many outlets to ask for your forgiveness and let us just say forgive and forget

i cant believe what happened yesterday... on columbus grrrr i hope u dont live down in s.p...
it will drive me nuts
you did so much more damage to me 3 1/2 years ago.
i heard you broke u with her in april....
i'm sorry
she wasnt good for you...

funny how this post is actually about 2 people...

OMG NEW PROJECT RUNAWAY ON LIFETIME!!! STARTING AUGUST 20TH
ALL NEW ALWAYS SUNNY DAY IN PHILADELPHIA STARTS LIKE SEPTEMBER 17 OR SOMETHING

TACOS ARE DELICIOUSSSS

mike chin up... hopefully things will work out.. keep working out :)
this will totally work out for you stay posi!!

mike wanna come over for tacos?


anyways...


i have an interview for a part time job working like nights and weekends...
hopefully i can land it and like save some money... and pay off other bills i have


::fingers crossed::


in other news, he finally added me on myspace today :)

lemuria makes me really excited and happy


zac asked if i wanted to be his girlfriend.
my response was like, i want to hang out more.
he's awesome but im still holding out for the person im not suppose to... :( it makes me sad
i havent spoken to said person since monday at around 745 pm :(
i hate boysssssss


i was in mental health court today... kyle makes me really smile but why did he get so weird.i wasnt asking for anything more than just hang outs and good times.why do boys get crazy?

i cannot make up mind.
why do girls want the asshole always...

zach is a really nice guy,but i dont know there is something there that i cannot describe

kyle is too much for me but i really like being with him,and he is really smart but i dont know.. a little nuts written on that

matt... i really enjoyed. but his job and texting habits will probably drive me nuts and im not nuts. i dont understand what's the deal anymore...

i miss you more than you'll ever know.
you probably wont read this
you probably wont even care

i'm sorry for the bullshit that came along with me

i was just making sure i could deal with it again


sorry i wasn't good enough

can things please work out for me
i love my job
i love my life right now
yeah im a little lonely but its okay

why cant this car thing just work...

work is good, and with this new change in my life (work,moving,leaving my old life behind) i've decided that a few new things need to change as well
the way i deal with people is ultimately what im hinting at

people walk all over me,take advantage of me and never take care of me
people who i call "friends" are slowly just going to vanish.
im not the girl you can just have your way with
i have more respect for myself than i guess you do...


sad thing is... i really started to like a boy.things seemed great. he seemed really into me
maybe i was just a rebound kinda likely thats what i've become recently

i forgot how good knapsack is

you can't miss what you forget.


i went on a date today
it was pretty awesome
for about 7 hours i wasn't worried,stressed or frustrated

my miniscule problems seemed to fade away and the only thing that went through my head was awesome conversation with an awesome guy.
and a good snuggler...

So with that said, i think i'm going to be able to forget who i need to, and move forward, i know things you don't know and will never know... but it's not a competition, i know my worth i know what i am. i'm better than you'll ever be.

so i came to visit him. 245 dollars later it turns out, 1)hes definitely marrying this girl. 2) shes really ugly 3) he cares a bout me more than he can explain and wanted me around to share in this occassion..
why does this constantly happen
this you are better you deserve greatness bullshit..

im over it
haha


my dreams have been fucking with my head lately,
youve been in them and its like vivid images
what does it mean i wish i had a dream book because wtf

mountain boy and i are getting together this week... i havent seen him in 2 years, im a littler nervous, we talk so much but i miss actually seeing him. he is dating this apparently great girl but i guess we will see if there are any sparks still there...
he is one of the only guys i know that can tell me im being a fucking moron and i dont get offended
he's also the only one i know that brings me back to reality. and looking at things from a logical p.o.v
his trip to wherever he went was good for him, im glad he's back though 2 months of not talking to him made me nuts!!
we are celebrating both of our bdays because he missed mine and i missed his.


on another note...i dont start my real girl job till the 6th. im kinda excited. im nervous. things will work out. they always do. they just get a little fucked up for a while...

i wish i could tell u how uch i miss you... you probably dont read this...but i miss you.